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Kabhi khabar, kabhi khair.

And so the night hums like an old song, the kind that plays softly in the background of a memory you’re not sure is yours. A story waiting to be told, or maybe just a moment waiting to pass. Either way, the night will keep moving.  Well, force of habit. Kabhi khabar poochi,  toh kabhi poochi khair, Seher pe shuru hue tere naam pe, bilkul fikr bagair. Kabhi dekha nahi jise,  kabhi jisse nahi hui mulaqaat; Wajood nahi jiska zehan mein,  uski phir bhi sunaayi deti hai har ek baat. Shikayat karta hai vo mujhse, Dhoonda nahi use shayad poore dil se. Chahe pukara ho use jaan nisaar, Magar jatate kis haq se? Bayaan karne ki koshish ki ahista, Par bayhiss hi bol paaye. Guftagu ke zariye ibaadat tumne ki, Lekin kaafir hum kehlaaye. Maanga roz tujhe usse, Jaise koi ho dastoor. Woh ho gaya thoda naraaz, Par isme mera kya qasoor? Kuch waqt sa guzar gaya, Ek arsa jaise dheeme dheeme jiya. Mazaak mein pareshaan tu kar baitha, Aur aashiq hume keh diya. Shayad kabhi tujh tak ye...

a few more Miles than just the Moon and back (:

There are two kinds of people in the world: the ones you meet, exchange pleasantries with, and promptly forget the moment they leave the room—and then there are the ones who, for no logical reason at all, get stuck in your head like a poorly-written pop song . The kind that shouldn’t linger but does, that worms its way into your subconscious, popping up at odd moments—when you’re tying your shoelaces, when you’re waiting for the kettle to boil, when you’re halfway through a meeting pretending to care about synergy but are actually wondering what someone drinks on a Saturday night. People never really choose which category someone falls into, and if Miles had been given the choice, he probably would’ve filed Her under forgettable and called it a day. Except he wasn’t given the choice. It wasn’t love at first sight, (blows raspberries) or even admiration. Nothing theatrical, no fireworks, no grand epiphany. Just five seconds. A glance across a jazz bar, a half-empty drink, a laugh h...

Miles to go before I sleep.

If you asked Miles about that morning—months later, years later, in some dimly lit bar when his guard was down—he wouldn’t be able to tell you why it mattered. Not at first. He’d frown, tilt his head like he was trying to shake loose the answer, and maybe laugh it off, saying something dismissive like, “It was just a weird moment. Nothing, really.” But that would be a lie. Because the truth is, the world is full of people you meet and forget, faces that blur into a background you never bother to sharpen. And then, there are the ones who—without meaning to, without even trying—get stuck . Not because they want to be, but because, for one reason or another, your mind refuses to let them go. And that’s exactly how this started. Not with some grand revelation. Not with sparks flying or a moment that changed everything. Just four seconds. A flicker of something real in a woman who wasn’t supposed to be real to him. A moment so small it should have disappeared into the mess of his day, but ...

Peaking, aren’t you?

  Damn it, kid. Damn it!!! I called out into the air again, like a fool throwing pebbles into the sea, waiting for some kind of ripple to reach me. It’s ridiculous, really, the way I try to fold him into the corners of my mind, like he’s some half-finished poem I can’t leave alone. He doesn’t know it, but he’s here. Lingering in the quiet spaces of my thoughts, a stubborn thread of smoke that refuses to clear. And maybe I’m just drunk on the idea of him watching, standing at some distant edge, like a stray star in a sky I don’t understand. It’s not love—not even close. It’s not even a crush, but something itchier, like a splinter under the skin. He’s a question that doesn’t need answering, a riddle I didn’t ask for but can’t help trying to solve. Maybe it’s because he doesn’t belong in my world, not really. He’s so bloody different, somewhat playful and careless in that “all neon confidence and cheap dopamine” kinda way, you know? I’m quiet, sharper around the edges, but somehow he...

The River and the Flame

In stillness, I dissolve to him, A flame that calls me from within. I am his now, and he is mine, No longer seeking, lost in time. He whispers softly in my ear, A voice that only I can hear. Not thunder loud, but gentle, sweet, His presence is where the silence meets. I was a river, wild and free, Seeking shores I could not see. But in his gaze, I found my home, The river and the ocean, one alone. I am nothing, yet I am all, Like endless skies and shadows' call. In surrender, I find my place, Not lost, but held in his embrace. He is the root, and I the tree, A dance of shadows, light, and sea. In losing myself, I’ve learned to be, The quiet rhythm of the divine decree. Now my heart beats only his name, No more running, no more shame. In every breath, in every sigh, I am his, and he is nigh.  That, which is not. :) Until next time, Love always, S

Almost? Almost.

There’s a moment between dreaming and waking when the world softens—kind of like butter left too long on the counter. That’s where I found myself, staring at the ceiling fan, counting its revolutions like it held some cosmic secret. “Should I text you?” I asked into the void of my mind. Somewhere, I was sure you heard it. You always did. “Why are you like this?” your voice echoed back, amused and familiar. I pictured you in some cozy café, lazily stirring coffee that didn’t need stirring. “It’s a gift,” I replied silently. We’d always had this strange way of talking without speaking—like our thoughts were on the same invisible string. It made everything harder and easier all at once. Real conversations had rules, timing, consequences. This? This was our glitch in the matrix where things could stay almost perfect. “I wish we could go grocery shopping together,” I thought suddenly, standing in the middle of the cereal aisle surrounded by strangers making life-altering decisions ...